What am I doing? I’m working in a job that welcomes my questions that come from my headspace, but also challenges me to tap into my “heart space,” as I walk with our partners on a journey to self-empowerment and a house they can call their own. Along the way I use my discretion to problem solve and address situations that arise with each individual case. At the same time, I am learning how non-profits operate in an international setting and how to correctly swing a hammer, lift walls and nail roofing.
Why am I here? To learn the realities of the people I work with every day. Sharing in and cherishing all the ups and all the downs of the lives of those I am serving, as I accompany them to the best of my ability. I’m here to explore humanity’s capacity for generosity, love and hope.
After six full months of living here, I still have yet more questions. Every day I struggle to ask the question and then just…be with the question, answer or not. Thanks in part to Richard Rohr and another to my spiritual director, Pat, I came across this quote from Rainer Mara Rilke’s “Letters to a Young Poet”:
I beg you, have patience with everything unresolved in your heart…live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
Live the questions. Perhaps then you will gradually live your way into the answer.
Questions are important, and answers can be too. But it’s not allowing the questions to overwhelm the experience – the living – that is truly something to practice.